a brain dump

• Last Thursday the sleep deprivation finally got to me & on a whim I decided I wanted Grayson in a toddler bed ASAP. He has been waking up at the crack of dawn since mid-July for some reason & when it became 5:45, I was over it.  I thought he needed a change. Well, Grayson got his "tools" and helped Ben "build" his new bed (for real y'all, G thinks he built his own bed! ha!) before naptime on Thursday. 

 This was the final product. I threw in a pillow for good measure. Guess what?! GRAYSON HAS BEEN A TODDLER BED SUPERSTAR! I. Am. Shocked. He has slept in there without a problem & hasn't gotten out of bed at all! He has even been sleeping later...praise the Lord! Mama needs sleep. So, apparently the toddler bed wasn't as scary as I envisioned. (knock on wood)

• I just signed up for Weight Watchers again yesterday. I was a member for 2 months before I got pregnant with Griffin & lost some weight. I'll have a post soon about the whole "body after baby numero dos" thing. It isn't as pretty as the first time around. 

• I can't get over how similar my boys look. It's almost scary. Griffin is basically a clone of baby Grayson. He just has darker hair & he's a lot smaller. Seriously, look at this side-by-side comparison:

Both pictures taken at 3 weeks old. I need to start labeling pictures! 

• I have been the biggest baby about putting Griffin in his crib. I can't believe I ever thought that I could let him sleep in his own room from day one.  I laid him in there on Sunday night & made it a whole 10 seconds before I scooped him up. Griffin just looked SO tiny & lonely in that big bed all by himself.  So? He's still in our bedroom. I'll pretend like he sleeps in his bassinet all night long & never cosleeps with me. Pretend being the keyword.
• Also? The fact that I am exclusively breastfeeding, using my K'Tan baby carrier ALL THE TIME, and semi-cosleeping?! Well, I feel like I've gone all crunchy granola on you guys. Don't worry. I won't be getting a "family bed" anytime soon. Griffin will get his eviction notice soon enough. 
• I think I have decided what every new mom needs: a maid service for the first 3 months. Honestly, this has been the most stressful change for me since having 2 kids. I feel like my house is a disaster 24/7. I had this great cleaning routine when it was just G but I can't seem to get everything done now. I know Griffin will eventually be on a schedule & things will get easier, but, 3 shedding dogs + a toddler + a newborn = my house looks like a tornado went through it at all times. It's making me a crazy person.
• The PP hormones this time are killing me. I feel like I cry about everything. I don't feel "done" having babies & I have always said I would love to have a baby girl. However, I did tell Ben that I am feeling super sentimental about all these sweet, tiny boy clothes. What if I do get pregnant again & have a girl? Then I may never use these sweet boy things ever again! *cue tears* Also, it was my decision to switch G's bed but I still got all teary when he transitioned so easily. Where did my baby go?!