10.16.2014

a juggling act

My poor blog has been so neglected since Cheney's arrival. I feel like my brain is exploding with things to write about and I simply need about 10 extra hours in my day. Ah, such is life.
 
Going from 2 kids to 3 kids has been a lot easier for us than going from 1 to 2. That doesn't mean that our lives aren't really chaotic right now. It just means that I expected the chaos this time around & know that I have to just go with the flow or I may just go crazy.  That being said, I feel like this season of life we are in is like a big juggling act. We have so much going on & 3 kids who still very much depend on us. My feet hit the ground running at around 6:30 and I don't sit down until about 9:30 at night. It. Is. Exhausting. And as much as I want to document this sweet season of our lives, I just don't have the energy most nights. (or any night, really. I'm typing this on the rare occasion that ALL THREE KIDS ARE NAPPING! Hallelujah!)
 
It's hard to juggle everything in life. I mean, I can't even juggle physical objects so juggling all the needs of my people and our house are even harder. I am really trying to be more intentional with my time lately. It took me a little while after Cheney was born to realize that I was frazzled and grumpy. I was starting to feel defeated. I was meeting the needs of everyone around me but I was forgetting that I have needs too.
 
 I get in this bad habit of trying to be superwoman all on my own. We started a new bible study this year at my church on Wednesday mornings & one of the first things I heard brought me back to where I needed to be.  One of the reading assignments talked about how God wants to rescue us. It doesn't have to be from some huge situation; it can be from anything. I was not being the best mom & wife I could be because I had not been putting Him first. I was trying to handle everything on my own & I just can't. I had not made any time to read my bible and have my quiet time. I made so many excuses as to why I didn't have time to sit & just spend time with the Lord. I was doing this particular bible study one afternoon on our back patio and I swear it was like I got a smack right upside the head. I can't do everything on my own & I'm not supposed to be able to. The Lord wants me to ask for help. It won't feel like such an impossible juggling act when I do that. Why is something so simple like that so hard to remember sometimes?
 
I hope I will be able to find some more time soon to update the ol' blog. I sure do miss it! Until then, I will just leave you with some of pictures of my growing up WAY TOO FAST kids.
 
 


1 comment:

Stephanie said...

I'm sure days can be long and filled with so many emotions but a year from now you are going to look back on every single second of madness, knowing that you loved every single minute of your time with your little circus!